Yesterday I dropped my mama at the airport. This morning, I packed my husband a lunch and watched him drive away to work before first light. I’ve got a list of repairs for the workmen coming today, and mountain of boxes to unpack. I think I live here now! It is both exciting and scary. Similar emotions those two. It is exciting as a watch the cresent moon and Venus move across the side pasture, exciting that the back pond is frozen solid, exciting that the ocean is just beyond those trees and the wind blowing against our home is coming off the sea. Scary because my family is so far away. I’ve never really lived anywhere except my hometown. I’ve always been a phone call away and I’ve always been there for birthdays and every-days. Now that I am here, I have to continue to transform this dream into reality. I need to grow my business and get part-time work. I need to find homeschool groups and actitivites for the kids. We need to find our future friends and become part of the community. Exciting. And, scary.
Before, I was missing the space to expand and I was missing the place I needed to be. Now we are here, and I miss my family and the comfort of knowing just how everything is. The thing I keep holding tight to is that our family and friends and experiences from the past get to come with us on this journey, but the future we are about to live would never be without this monumental change. Today is the first work day of 2019. The stars are aligned for a big bountiful year, and I can see them all from my front porch.